FMC

this entry is going to be written with a heavy heart.
i'm still very affected by the outcome of everything.
i keep hoping,wishing in my mind that the result was just a dream.
but it's not. it's a fact.
they've already given me the death sentence and i will die in their hands.
i've been crying non-stop since i've opened that freaking email last night.
thanks to those who comforted me: ben,chin liat,eelin,nas,marzuk,allen,zhuming,afiq,youwei and john.
at least i now know that i'm not alone,that i'm not just a main comm reject who is an utter failure.
that my hard work and effort for the past 2 mths have met with their deserved recognition (:
i really appreciate all the encouragement and concerned words from you guys.
at least i know that in mentoring club,i'm not alone.
and marzuk,stop blaming yourself la. it's not your fault.
all i can say is that judgement in the main comm 06/07 is clearly WRONG.
if we're only going to get into main comm for the wrong reasons(whether or not someone is in their good books or not) and not based on merit,i honestly think that this whole committee is damn fucked up.
i swear i never ever want to talk to any of those who turned their back on me.
it makes me wonder what kind of people lies in the committee.
i thought i had friends there,but clearly i was wrong.
they made wrong judgement,so did i.
becos i naively thought i had friends there but that isn't the way at all.
i still find it hard to accept the truth.
that after all my effort,time,sacrifices i've made,this is what i get.
oh wells,on the brighter side i have more time to make up for the lost time i've missed with family and other friends and as well as my studies.
congrats to main comm o7/o8 i'm really proud of all of you (:
i'm sorry i cannot be part of this wonderful committee,to bring the club up to better heights but i sincerely wish you guys all the best :D
do spbp mentoring proud k. you guys can do it,i know it.
anw this still hurts,i'm like trying to see through all my tears but i'll try and live with it la.
anw FMC officially stands for fucked main comm.
i rest my case.
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