Reflection

Look at me, you may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday, it's as if I play a part
Now I see, if I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

I am now, in a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow, I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else, for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

There's a heart that must be free, to fly
That burns, with a need to know
The reason why, why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide

I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside...
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

Ohh ohh...

-

i dunno how to be myself anymore..
why did i become like this?

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Would You Be There

If I were blue
Would you be there for me
And whisper in my ear that's okay
Would you stand by me
Let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time

If I feel good
Would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
And never look back

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there..

If I'm away
Would you stil think of me
Nnd wish that you could hold me now (Hold me now)
And would you die for me
Would you run with me
All the way

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away
Would you be there...
For me...

(credits to jiaen cos i took it from her blog :D)

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Mini Art Museum

collected the museums on friday :D


front view


top view

this one is for marce de (:

front view


top view

haha i know why sH loves it so much le.
damn cute pls (:
oh yah found this in my cam today.
yongxin's bday celebration at kidsread!


birthday girl with 2 mentees.


she become stuck with our birthday wishes. hahaha.

anw damn sian cos sch starting tmr.
wish it's still elearning mans :/
i'm darn sian la.
blog tmr or smth.
stressed stressed stressed!
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圣堂之门

这是一个让人沉沦的纪元
灰色谎言冷漠了整个世界
收拾心情我向下一站旅行
为了你找寻能重生的寓言
天使断了翅膀微笑着
美丽的牺牲
带着伤痕背负着人们
穿越圣堂之门
看到你那空洞的眼神
还想逃开害怕承认
你转身
天上的风吹散了云的伤痕
我才开始慢慢的学会平衡
爱的过程伤透了我的灵魂
你就这样离开让我很心疼
我学会平衡
永远不再心疼

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love this song mans. haha (:
i love my ah qin la! wish ahdi wld dan fei soon so i can just hear him all day long >.<
oh oh,dunno if he'll see this but HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASTLEY! (:
nevertheless,damn tired now!
slept at 5am then like i had to pang seh aaron today.
sorry yeah. didn't mean to :(
anw alot of things have come to surface after this whole fiasco.
all i can say is disappointment and even more disappointment.
but oh wells,we move on and get back on our feet becos this is the harsh reality of life.
oh yeah went for tang yuan ytd :D
stupid zhuming say not nice leh. idiot. haha.
it's nice ok! and we walked to bugis after that to eat even more food.
damn fattening la!~ then like walked ard at bugis b4 gg to vivo to watch blades of glory.
then like cos we were watching the 9.30 movie,after dinner we went to the rooftop there to slack first.
saw many many stars then like got qt emo cos it reminded me of my shooting star.
i dunno how is he doing now,hope he's all right.
that's all i can pray.
as much as i'd like him to be by my side,i understand that it's impossible.
haix then like was thinking abt that issue la.
cos saw el and yw wearing the jersey,then i wonder will i ever wear mine again?
becos to me,i dun feel part of the comm anymore.
like rejected goods,leftover goods like that.
somehow that sense of belonging is gone.
sure i still have my friends and everything but it wun be the same anymore.
dunno la,just very angry and hurt about this whole stupid thing la.
sometimes i wonder if i'd be better off going back to be my old self again,clamming up and keeping everything to myself.
what people say is really contradictory.
do this i oso kena blamed,dun do this oso kena blamed.
i honestly dunno wat to do no more.
did they ever considered how we'd feel at all?
the rejected sub comm ppl.
it hurts me even more becos i see through all their lies/cover-ups and like it makes me wonder why is the world like that.
just utterly disgusted by it la.
haix shall not dwell on it further.
oh yah blades of glory is bloody funny i tell you!!
go watch can :D
the 8 of us laugh until peng pls in the cinema.
then came home damn late and mum was complaining.
shall go and get ready now la.
got work later.
my elearning still left POPRI lehhhh.
think weiteng gonna kill me cos we suppose to swop answers or smth.
cham cham cham and chinliat/sinhui!!
send me GEMS! if not i die horribly can.
haha ok cya ppl.
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Tang Yuan

wish i had the energy and mood to blog.
but i dun.
goodbye ppl.
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FMC

this entry is going to be written with a heavy heart.
i'm still very affected by the outcome of everything.
i keep hoping,wishing in my mind that the result was just a dream.
but it's not. it's a fact.
they've already given me the death sentence and i will die in their hands.
i've been crying non-stop since i've opened that freaking email last night.
thanks to those who comforted me: ben,chin liat,eelin,nas,marzuk,allen,zhuming,afiq,youwei and john.
at least i now know that i'm not alone,that i'm not just a main comm reject who is an utter failure.
that my hard work and effort for the past 2 mths have met with their deserved recognition (:
i really appreciate all the encouragement and concerned words from you guys.
at least i know that in mentoring club,i'm not alone.
and marzuk,stop blaming yourself la. it's not your fault.
all i can say is that judgement in the main comm 06/07 is clearly WRONG.
if we're only going to get into main comm for the wrong reasons(whether or not someone is in their good books or not) and not based on merit,i honestly think that this whole committee is damn fucked up.
i swear i never ever want to talk to any of those who turned their back on me.
it makes me wonder what kind of people lies in the committee.
i thought i had friends there,but clearly i was wrong.
they made wrong judgement,so did i.
becos i naively thought i had friends there but that isn't the way at all.
i still find it hard to accept the truth.
that after all my effort,time,sacrifices i've made,this is what i get.
oh wells,on the brighter side i have more time to make up for the lost time i've missed with family and other friends and as well as my studies.
congrats to main comm o7/o8 i'm really proud of all of you (:
i'm sorry i cannot be part of this wonderful committee,to bring the club up to better heights but i sincerely wish you guys all the best :D
do spbp mentoring proud k. you guys can do it,i know it.
anw this still hurts,i'm like trying to see through all my tears but i'll try and live with it la.
anw FMC officially stands for fucked main comm.
i rest my case.
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Discipline

i shall obtain self discipline from this instant.
shall go and finish off my bloody elearning stuff by tonite except GEMS cos waiting for a certain mr shue to finish it and reference it to me.
HAHAHAHA XD
oh yeah,shall start on cleaning my room abit today.
carn believe move in 6 weeks plus alr and all my things are still in the box leh.
gahhhh. tuition got cancelled today.
totally messed up my schedule but wat the heck la.
had more time to sleep.
still feeling sick now can.
hate being sick,hate medicine.
i checked my bank acc today.
severe depression now :(
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Unblock My Nose Pls

omg i'm so totally dying la.
my nose has been blocked since ytd and it was so bad that when eelin heard me in com lab she thought i was wearing my retainer la.
erm digress abit,i talk weird with my retainer arh? T.T
means for a good half a yr i've been speaking weirdly. sians.
HAHAHAH ok so random pls.
nevertheless,someone unblock my nose pls.
i was totally freezing in the com lab just now during gmould can.
anw stupid module la. thanks aaron for helping us to finish it :D
so was in sch till abt 4pm,frozen stiff with severe nasal blockage.
came home and napped till 11 plus just now cos my mum bugged me to have breakfast with her this morning.
so i had to wake up early T.T
lack of sleep~~~ hahahaha.
now i'm just awaiting for the medicine to kick in so i can go back and sleep again.
but prior to that must go shower and wash up first.
i'm darn sad la! :(
i missed his phonecall just now cos i was sleeping away like a pig pls!
gahhhh damn angry with myself la.
when i knock out,i totally knock out pls.
so i couldn't even hear my stupid phone ringing can.
must invest in a phone with uber loud ringtone le.
but qt auntie hor? LOL.
ytd went to kbox with sH (:
so happy cos i sang so many songs la and we kept laughing at the uncles next door.
they were like singing oldies there and erh,hokkien songs?
yeah righttttttttttttttttttt.
oh and i irritated the hell outta sH with the angela song.
so evil i noe,but oh wells ^^
yeah then we kept laughing and laughing cos we were trying to sing the entire zhi dui ni you gan jue in hebe's voice.
HAHAHAH XD
oh yeah and i could totally imitate xiao jie's voice for shining kiss.
bloody funny i tell u. cldn't do so for ya tou's voice except for the last part :/
yeah ytd was fun (:
haha went to adidas after that to attempt to find my gazette shoe there?
but dun have leh :(
saw another Respect ME one that i wanted to get but no size!!!
grrrrrr it came only in sH's size.
so LOL la im shinhye. ask her buy on the spot she say consider.
go back no more size le.
oh and i saw a Respect ME top i wanted so badly but it cost $99.
resisted the urge to NETS IT then went wisma after that.
went to spend even more $ after that.
no la went to buy facial products and i had to use my own cash so $ fly away le~
then me and sH got tempted by the xiao zhu book.
and there was 20% storewide at kino for that day leh~
in the end we bought it :D
i bought wo ai da ming xing as well cos cldn't resist the 20% discount despite the vast depletion in my bank acc :/
finally got my mini art museum le!! ^^
waiting to collect my personal one later in the week.
carn wait cos got my korean name! lolx.
tempted to do more leh sH!
i saw ur bakery hse damn cute pls.
ENDURE PAU ENDURE.
shall post pics up another day.
too lazy to do so now.
unblock my nose la dammit.
carn breathe properly can.
oh wells. shall go shower or smth now ba.
tas ppl as dawn wld say.
miss ya mistersex.
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New template (:

wahahah new template :D
needed a change of template so yeah there you have it.
was looking for smth simply la but... cldn't find any?
yeah kiku maybe when u're free do me a template or smth.
nevertheless the past couple of days have been exciting!
friday was spent in sch cos i woke up an hr earlier for sch.
stoned in library b4 gg for S&PM.
went com lab to stone some more b4 meeting jas & meli for lunch la.
after lunch go lib find belle belle they all cos they were watching movie la!
but cldn't finish the movie cos it was tutorial time liao.
went work after sch then like had so much fun there annoying the hell outta justyn la.
we kept laughing and laughing at customers until we forgot to close counter =X
sat had kidsread then took train with bro so had some quality time bonding with him which is great :D
i love my bro (:


my darling wanted to go down and play the "wu zi" so here she is :D


yee xin and me (:


she's mine,all mine! lolx.


camera shy la some one


i am so in love with her (:


haha she was trying to lock me in -.-


mentee & mentor (:


haha i cldn't help but camwhore a lil ^^


in her lil house


O.o someone's hiding from me!

anw i'm so totally in love with yee xin la.
i'm gonna miss her cos i carn see her next week cos no kidsread! T.T
ppl stop stealing her from me!
esp cedrick choo & chung chiu wo!
she's mineeeeeeeeee lolx.
oh,we celebrated yongxin's bday at kidsread as well.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONGXIN!
even tho it's belated now i think >.<
went to work after kidsread as usual.
kenny got bored there la.
see what's this -.-


so anw met justyn's gf shu hua finally!
they look like fu qi la!
and he's so mean to her la.
then again,which bfs treat their gfs good de? lolx.
look at mine >.<
oh yeah saw alister & co. while working.
they came to book chamber and play lan(adrian & helang).
went in to slack abit with them and steal their popcorn hoho.
sH and i went to mini art museum after work to do even more mini art museums.
wohoo~ so totally high cos i finally got mine ^^
now gotta wait till they do finish everything le then i'll post it online bah.
but the 3 mini art museums burnt a huge hole in my pocket man.
abt 100 bucks fly away le~ sadded.
but it's worth it cos i like it ^^
watched bridge to terabithia today with mum,bro & the lil brat.
damn sad la the show. was kinda expecting narnia-esque kinda plot but erh it still turned out pretty fine for me (:
went to do another mini art museum for myself after that and walked over to wisma.
guess who i saw there la.
mok xinling with her bf.
am i that slow until i dun even noe she's attached?
hahaha anw it was nice seeing you sloth darling!
now that u have samuel dun ditch me okok? ^^
miss ya loads. must go watch shrek together okok.
haha hopped over to queensway after that with my bro cos he wanted to buy me shoes.
wat better than to get free shoes so yeah bought nike air force 1 today (:
altho we dun really talk much abt our feelings,i still love my bro alot :D
anw we both got really tempted with the new england jersey.
he wanted to get the john terry one and i the steven gerrard one.
but it's 100+++ for the whole thing leh. sadded pls.
and i still gotta do customise my liverpool one!!
wah faints pls. i'm so darn broke le la~ gahhh.
erm my bday's coming ppl :D 2 more mths haha.
nevertheless i'm a happy pau today.
tmr's elearning but sH and i gg kbox tmr so i'll be even happier!
maybe i'll wear my new air force wahahahaha.
ok gtg. shall attempt elearning a lil later then zzzz ba.
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Panda Eyes

to one of my most special frens/bestie:
HAPPY 18TH SINHUI (:
i am honestly damn tired :(
my dark triangles,yes you din read wrongly,triangles are not improving.
normal ppl have dark circles,but mine end up a triangle shape T.T
nevertheless,had gmould in the morning at an ungodly hour of 8am.
dad sent me to sch cos he wanted me to sleep another hour. wohoo~
thanks pa :D so i only woke up at 6.30am.
stoned thru gmould and engi math tutorial.
had even more gmould after that and lectures till 5pm straight.
thursday sucks pls,as lilian would say. hahaha.
went to clubroom to take home my ipod speakers.
thanks weiping for waiting for us :D
makaned with ym and el then wanted to go t16 to study but ugh,it was filled with guys dota-ing non stop so we ditched the idea and came home.
my arms are still red from carrying that bloody speakers of mine.
remind me never to ever volunteer my speakers ok.
i never ever want to lug that thing out of my hse except when i'm moving hse.
tmr is another day of sch and then TGIF!!
thank god man,i could definitely get a good rest.
looking forward to elearning mans (:
anw was reading kiku's archives ytd at work.
all i can say is those were the days ^^
now i'm feeling nostalgic.
miss the crescent days man. haix oh wells,we carn always keep living in the past rite?
shall go Zzzz after i shower now.
i need sleep!! -pulls hair out.
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Auntie

omg i'm damn sad la :(
some kid called me "auntie" damn loudly in front of su today when he wanted smth from the counter.
then she started laughing like mad la.
cos that kid was like twice my size and clearly a good 2-3 years younger than me.
SADDED! T.T
yah and you guys can stop laughing alr -.-
so anw i actually woke up on time today and went to sch super early despite sleeping late ytd.
freezed through QAS cos i forgot to bring my jacket (no one wanted to lend me. even more sadded lolx.) as well as nano materials lecture.
omg so much to do for elearning la!
shall use next week to study very very hard for the tests after elearning.
CLS is so jian lor. put all the tests after elearning then we have no excuse not to study. tskkkkk.
which reminds me, mr ho was asking us to sign up for this japan exchange programme trip.
damn tempted to do so la but gotta save $ la.
i carn split myself into like 2 places at 1 go.
think i rather spend my hard earned money on a trip to some place where the living expenses ain't that sky high la.
either taiwan or bangkok! :D
tempting tempting la cos my auntie's gg there in july.
but i shall perservere and not pon sch la.
maybe another time ba :(
so anw justyn koh xian hao! pls be grateful i'm working today hor.
lolx jk la. get well soon fellow san ba (:
i'm damn bored at work now la.
everyone's slacking here lor.
i'm surfing thru you tube and su's msn-ing.
damn evil,i noe. but who cares (:
wanted to do engi math tutorials while working but clearly i have no motivation.
i'm just rotting here waiting for another 2 hrs to pass so i can scoot home and zzz soon LOL!
anw carn wait to go kbox with sH as part of her belated bday celebration next week!!
dying dying to go there cos the last time i went to k there was too many ppl and i hardly got to sing my songs :(
sH! i want my korean name from mini art musuem~
remind me to save $$ so i can get it yeah ^^
alrite running out of things to blog le.
oh yah,cedrick choo is annoying.
cos he refuses to admit he has clothes in the same design but in several colours.
LOL ok ciao ppl.
i shall slowly stone till 10pm for now.
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Over It

hmmmm short day at sch today ba.
had QAS and ENG MATHII today (:
so came home early to slack la.
now waiting for dad to appear at home so we can go makan together.
haven't done that in ages liao le la.
all the sacrifices. haix.
nevertheless,suppose to do QAS tutorial de and maybe maths but i got lazy.
hahahah XD oops? ^^
anw kiku when do you wanna go watch shrek3?
carn wait to see shrek babies in it man.
bloody funny pls.
listening to alot of random songs now.
heard this on jiaen's blog b4.
qt nice la this song,then again when do i listen to katherine mcphee? >.<
ok,stomach grumbling le.
i'm so sick and tired la.
i think my com's blogger is spoilt :(
oh wells.
cya ppl.

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"Over It" by Katherine McPhee

I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night,
and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,
I know you're not alone.
oh..

That's why
(your eyes)
I'm over it
(your smile)
I'm over it
(realize)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over..

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..

That's why,
(your words)
I'm over it
(so sure)
I'm over it
(I'm not your girl)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over...

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

Don't call,
don't come by,
ain't no use,
don't ask me why,
you'll never change,
there'll be no more crying in the rain.

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm so over it....
I'm over it....

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

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Suddenly

Suddenly - Ashley Tisdale

Suddenly I, am in front of the lights
Everything, I'm feeling
Scary and beautiful at the same time
And every day I try just to breathe
I want to show the whole world
The truth inside of me

Suddenly people know my name
Suddenly everything has changed
Suddenly I feel so alive
In the blink of an eye

My dreams begin to rain
Suddenly time, feels like the wind
It changes everywhere I go
I'm just trying to fit in
Now here I stand
And I'm still just that girl
I'm following my heart
In this amazing crazy world

Suddenly people know my name
Suddenly everything has changed
Suddenly I feel so alive
In the blink of an eye
Suddenly I am center stage
Suddenly I am not afraid
Suddenly I believe again
In a blink of an eye it's happening now

As my dreams begin to rain
I want to say to love me for me
What's inside
I'm gonna be positive, not run away, so much for you
This is my life

Suddenly I am center stage
Suddenly I am not afraid
Suddenly I believe again
In the blink of an eye
My dreams begin to reign
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Empty empty me

pau's full :D
had a fab dinner at cine's xin wang HK cafe with el after s&pm pract.
went to take my levi's jeans prior to that. yippee (:
din take pics of my yummy (and sinfully fattening) chicken wing baked rice tho.
so unglam la,everyone's eating with fork/spoon/chopsticks but i'm like using my hands to peel my chicken wing. lolx.
went revoltage after dinner to look at clothes cos there got sale :D
wanted to get a shirt from there cos there was 30% discount and then i remembered my depleting bank acc so immediately retracted the idea of getting it la.
it was a pic of a her royal meowness and i immediately thot of kiku (:
oh yah! saw ervin's bag there. LOL.
it was on 30% discount too then think he heartpain liao le la.
and cedrick chew,dun get it la. stick to your scotch-taped zinc bag.
hahaha jk la. came home after that la then rot here for 30mins le.
supposed to be doing QAS tutorial la. maybe later ba.
i felt so hurt today,really. but i shall be strong.
in this world,there are bound to be ppl who are out to hurt you so i'll just have to learn to be strong.
thanks el for the advice (:
anw jiaen! if got new spree for junkfood tee rite,tell me ait girl.
haha i wanna get 1 lolx.
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Breaktime :(

felt so much better after a night's sleep.
well,my emotions are more or less settled alr la i think.
i'm not even bothering to skip all the happy songs on my iPod anymore like i've been doing recently.
why do i bother so much when he doesn't even care whether or not i feel hurt by all his actions.
so many things just remind me of all the things we shared.
or rather,what we once shared.
yeah,so pretty much that's it la.
soooooooooo went to sch today on time :D
as in,managed to catch the last train to sch so it was a long sleep for me (:
met lester on the way to sch then had POPRI tutorial.
that ended quickly so yippee!! breaktime :D
then we realised we had like close to 3 hrs break la wth.
went fc4 to makan with the class and talked to marce b4 he boarded the plane.
i'll miss you :(
i'm now back to square one but oh wells,shall channel all my energy into catching up with frens.
choobsy!! come back soon so we can all go out and have a ball of time once again.
it seems that i'm myself the most with the misters ard.
gahhh shall go and rot ard in sch some more la.
boring boring boring XD
oh,ashley tisdale's album is so nice. go listen if you have it.
peace out ppl.
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Play

this is bloody random: I FORGOT TO PRE-ORDER S.H.E'S ALBUM "PLAY"!!!!
argh!!!!!!!!!! now i dun have the freebies liao le la.
wah damn sad la :(
ok,time to sleep.
gdnite ppl
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Mother's Day (:

haha so i haven't been really updating huh? >.<
yeah thursday was hell! i woke up like 30 mins b4 my lesson and it's like where do i live la.
it's not as if i live in the west area or smth.
remind me once again why i'm still living in amk and not west areas T.T
went late for gmould lor. haix.
that module is still blur to me la.
so anw found this pic in my phone again.


HAHAHAHAH XD
notice the broken leg of the chair?
yes,a certain albert azmi did that.
LOL and he ain't fat alright.
bloody funny la considering how he sat on it and huat jin,aaron were pulling him and *crack* the leg of the chair became bent.
yeah so nevertheless friday went to work and emoed there.
sat kidsread wasn't any better but still...
went for MC interview after that.
didn't eat my lunch prior to that cos i was too nervous la.
interview details shall be kept private and confidential.
but i was really affected by that qn.
still,i shall adopt a dun know,dun care,dun bother attitude.
makaned dinner with ym and el at jp after that.
was supposed to study with el after interview but we both ended up sleeping at t15.
hahahaha typical la us. then again,she was sick that day.
take care pokey! i dun want to get killed 9 times >.<
so mother's day today (:
happy mother's day to all mothers be it grandmothers,mothers or godmothers (:
went grandma hse to makan lunch with the extended family.
ate durian cake :D


cost me $7 T.T and i only had 1 slice. lolx jk la cousin.
dun angry arh. haha.
so went on a shopping spree just now!! :D
retail therapy works the best right now.
bought 3 shirts and 1 levi's jeans.
absolutely broke now but i feel happy with my purchases.
oh and i finally got the L novel~~ wohoo~~
i sound kinda high now cos i have a splitting headache that has been going on for a good 3 days and i'm seriously devoid of emotions now.
shall attempt to sleep more.
ciao ppl.
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非你莫属

today,paula became a very bad person.
she hurt someone alot but the pain was inevitable.
tears have come and gone like that but it will never take away all the heartache she is feeling.

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thanks sH for listening to me during work just now.
it really cleared my mind about alot of stuff.
(:

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please keep all the happy memories while i keep the tears.
i'm sorry it had to be this way.
if time could turn back,i wished it never happened.
that way,at least you'll escape unscathed.
i really didn't wish for it to happen and i sincerely hope we'll still remain as friends.
but i think that's hardly possible on account you're totally avoiding me now.
all i just want you to know is that i cherish you as a friend.
and if this is how it ends,then i'll just let it be.
from the bottom of my heart,i'm really sorry.

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Emo Girl :(

decided to blog properly for once instead of emo-ing :D
was trying to upload some pics into my com then i saw this:


tadah! the toe a table fell on during camp. as in real table,like sch table that sort?
yeah all i can say is 'OUCH'.
nevertheless,been trying to get on with my own life despite all the problems i have on me.
mentoring sessions have been enjoyable esp with yee xin (:


haha wish all the mentees there were like her then maybe we'd all have a peaceful session for once.
and to other mentors,DUN STEAL HER FROM ME OK.
you're welcome to take the twins,see hwa,xiao pang,snob girl anytime.
carn imagine how the twins can actually be related to the both of them la.
they so guai and the twins are like.... :S
hahaha. yes and here's a gay monkey trying to scare my poor yee xin.


she clearly carn be bothered with him la :D
yeah so anw after kidsread on sat went to work la.
then go there to 'play' with justyn cos i kept whacking him.
sorry justyn... NOT.
and sH,your cousin is morphing into kenny pls!
he 'le-lio'-ed me last week la. LOL.
after that went to watch spidey cos i cldn't tahan!
makaned at HK cafe after that cos i was hungry (:


i noe this is qt SK la but i've never seen such a huge french toast b4.
and it was so totally worth my money pls despite me being broke that day.
so sinful yet so yummy!
which reminds me that everytime i work with justyn,we always end up eating cine cafe cakes -.-
omg dun make me look like you la oyster. hahaha.
if you start to look like kenny rite(read:dugong), dun blame me hor!


seeeeeeeee so huge la!! gigantic french toast >.<
anw went for angela's concert @ sp on monday.


better quality than cao ge's concert la. lolx.


adabelle,jas,yimei,eelin and me at the seats
still think angela has a nice voice la.. sadded that i saw her have AP pls..
if not maybe i'd still be buying her albums now. lolx.


allen kena 'saboed' on stage to play the game.
he claims he kena saboed but i think deep down he was dying to go la. lolx.
he can even put on MSN saying he was onstage singing with angela haha.
after angela's concert went clementi to eat with meryl,zm,astley and ervin at the jap food there.
saw yi le there? is that how you spell his name? aiyah,youwei & clement's friend.
HAHAHAHA. yah then like they wanted to play pool after that.
was totally stoning and emoing so i just followed them cos i din wanna go home and face 4 walls again.
totally regretted it cos i went home to realise my dark rings are qt obvious la.
ytd went to teach tuition then go bugis to take back my phone from marce.
and this was what i found inside my gallery.


trevor the toad. lolx.


marce acting cute i suppose? lolx.


and finally,kelvin here.
omg la ppl,you take my phone and camwhore on it.
wth pls lolx.
not exactly the nicest thing to open my gallery expecting to see my last known pic and to find kelvin's face staring at me la.
HAHAHAHAHAH omg dun kill me for posting the pics up yeah? ^^
alrights. i'm supposed to be doing my engi math tutorial now.
i mean that was why i came home early for la.
but apparantly,reached home for like 1 hr alr and i haven't even started!
okok,gtg fans.
to those who cared,thanks (:
i really appreciate it alot yeah.
at least i know that somewhere in this wretched world,there are people still caring for me.
i don't want to bother about anything alr la,i just want to live my life in peace.
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I MISS YOU MISTERS! :(

i wish SP had more ppl like the misters.
maybe then,my life wldn't be that miserable.
HAIX. i'm feeling so darn weird in class,it's as if i'm the oddball there la.
can we just go back to the crescent days? :(
what are friends?
friends are ppl who have no qualms abt making stupid jokes abt each other and standing by that each other in times of need. or am i wrong?
I MISS THE MISTERS LA!! sobs.
anw,haven't been blogging much as you see.
but one thing's for sure,FO CAMP'S OVER!!
thank god. erm pics... post up some day when i'm feeling less emo.
life sux as always as you can see.
i sometimes wonder wat ppl ard me are thinking la...
why are we all so complex and so hard to comprehend?
we need more misters kind of ppl in sp.
where all inhibitions are let go and we all just be our true selves..
oh wells,shan't really blog anymore.
kinda in a emo mood where all my feelings are messed up and confused.
but who do i talk to?
there's no one at the other end of the phone willing to listen to all my crap.
i'm tired of living a lie.
where do i go when i'm on the verge of mental breakdown?
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