I'll take the tears while you take the smiles...

erm i've been really emo lately.
maybe not much people knows but marce and i have decided to be friends only for the period of his NS.
so that explains everything la. but i dun wish to divulge why we ended it cos it's smth personal la.
maybe one day when i'm strong enough,i will.
nevertheless,camp's coming!!
OMG OMG OMG.
but smth really unhappy happened to me today.
i really am beginning to severely develop a strong sense of dislike towards that person...
and as a matter of factly,i've lost all due respect towards that person alr.
pls do not expect me to converse with him abt anything personal.
it shall only be proper business henceforth.
i treated that person has a confidante but i've had enough alr la...
watever pls.
now it's only ^)!(*&#*(&#!)*^#&%#@*&^*()@#&*(@ ok... DAMN IT.
haix camp is tmr.
bloody tired. i just feel like slaughtering all those idiotic ppl who annoy the hell outta me.
shall blog when i return. maybe i'll post pics up or smth soon.
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And this is it

well fans,believe it or not,i miss blogger.
it's my outlet of swearing and venting my frustration or wat not.
but yeah,i'm typing this entry with a heavy heart.
so many things have happened in this really short period of time....
i've moved into a new neighbourhood (ok,so what if it ain't that new? the freaking coffeeshop below got an upgrade to become semi foodcourt-ish. and so why carn the bloody neighbours do so too. tsk.)
a new semester has started after app dinner ended.
post pics up some day when i've actually attained sufficient sleep or smth.
somehow,i feel i've changed a person alr..
life sux real bad now.
i'm a bad person.
so bad,you'd wish you didn't know me.
of the angst and loneliness.
time out.
maybe i'll come and blog tonite if i have enuf time that is.
hate my bloody life and everything.
in fact, i hate myself most.
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Home Cleaning Services

i'm suffering from rashes all over cos of the filth my house is covered in.
finally cleaned finish the kitchen area after 2 days la.
tmr tackling my soon to be room.
yeah so today was a total disaster.
i cldn't sleep ytd,kept tossing and turning and SCRATCHING.
gosh,the dust is triggering my skin allergies la.
i've been itching like mad for the past few days and having a continuous splitting headache.
so i only slept barely 3-4 hrs last night and had to wake up at 8am today.
poor chin liat had to call me 5 times b4 i heard my phone. sorry =X
was in a foul mood for the entire day. sorta la.
not enuf sleep + itchy skin + huge headache = angry pau.
cldn't tahan so i din really eat much cos no appetite?
then went jintai today.
so quiet as compared to kidsread hahah XD
went makan at clementi b4 gg sch for camp songs + nightwalk trial.
haix. so many things happen in one night.
somehow,i felt that today was an utter failure la.
turn-up sucked,unenthu ppl,totally unprepared,misunderstandings,exhaustion.
it's like i'm beginning to feel the strain on me alr.
i just want to kill myself la =X
FOC is beginning to really look extremely pessimistic for me now.
SIGHS. oh wells,i shall just keep up with a positive attitude!
that's the spirit pau! ^^
but i just want to sleep now :/ lolx
anw tmr have to go clean house again.
free maid service lor wth.
then tuition then go sch again -faints.
i have no life alr la.
work. mentoring. work. mentoring.
tskkkkk.
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Shopping Spree

i haven't been blogging again hehe XD
nevertheless, the past few days have been chaotic.
hmmmm last thursday went JB then got so bored there i came back at 2pm lor.
then go teach tuition and after that go vivocity watch movie with eelin,youwei and adrian.
music and lyrics is nice :D
then fri went work,sat oso.
bloody hell movie vouchers sales was bad on sat la.
then at kidsread that day that stupid ames keep saying me and chin liat.
grrrrrr. that kuku come for cca pts nia lor -.-"
then sunday went to makan sushi with my bro and mum at bugis.
went to popular after that with my bro but not b4 going to swee lee cos my bro wanted to buy drumming sticks.
i think if i put drum sticks it sounds weird X)
nevertheless,i was damn tempted to pick up electric guitar la!!
gahhhhh nvm maybe i'll take a gap yr if there's ever time to learn korean + guitar haha.
so ytd went to serangoon hse to clean up.
it was filthy man.
i ended up with scabs all over cos i was scratching like mad there.
mum and i cleaned HALF the kitchen nia.
tmr morning gg again. gahhh and i gotta type finish camp songs + the stupid quantity crap.
tmr got meeting + jintai session!!! -pulls hair out.
on a happier note, went shopping with yimei and eelin today!! :D :D
walked from far east all the way to PS and cos i was buying dress for app dinner,i ended up with 2 dresses.
haha shall take pics of it when i'm free.
yeah but my mum agreed to pay 1 of them ($39 each dress) provided i help her clean the serangoon hse properly la.
wth. lolx. but nevertheless,great to be out shopping la.
smth which i or shld i say all 3 of us haven't done in ages.
btw eelin, my mum say keep the other dress for next yr CNY -.- but nvm la.
hahahah anw moving out either next mon or tuesday.
gdbye river valley once more,hello serangoon north.
mel,when sch reopen we can go sch together again if we got lessons at the same time again ^^
haix,miss the 26 girls. haven't seen them in ages la.
oh wells,gtg.
splitting headache.
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
-.